==: The Mission :==

Well, let's see.
I've realized some change.
A little though...
I've kinda lost interest in playing games, MMORPGs and the likes.
Main reason is that, there's nothing decent to play.
I'm bored. I'm bored of lvling characters for nothing.
At least Cabal caught my intersest. Cabal Online is the best action MMORPG out there.
The skills of each job is just so cool!
But this game is not available in the Phil. I'd either have to HTTP tunnel through my way to Cabal EU or Cabal Taiwan. But the HTTP Tunnel is very slow and causes lag. You'd have to pay to get a decent connection.
Lag=not worth it.
So here I am, with nothing to play.
In fact, it's not that bad.
When I was 14 going on 15, I was really addicted to online games. All I could think about each time I get home was either Ragnarok, Gunbound, O2Jam etc...
I mean I even felt sorry for people who did not play online games. (WTH?!)
Well as I write, I realize I should be the one feeling sorry for myself.
Life is more than just games. I tried to make excuses like: "I have to play now! Coz when I'm grown up, I'll be too busy to play!"
Well that's kinda true, but who am I to predict the future?
So, I actually feel alright. I can live without games. No problem.
I feel as if life begins to unfold before me.

I'm currently into Parkour.
It's really cool. Like a martial art.
Although my parents are still learning what it is. Kinda annoying, but I hope they'll finally understand.
That Parkour is not just jumping off buildings. Parkour is not something you do to show off. Parkour is not a path to suicide.
As one traceurist says:

"What is the point of parkour? Why practice it at all?


To be useful

Those three words show what parkour is really about, what it really is. Does anyone here honestly think that David Belle would spend 19 years of his life practicing parkour, and make parkour into his life, if it was about nothing but expression and freedom? What would be the point? There wouldn't be a point. That is, if parkour really was about expression and freedom. But it isn't.

Let me point out Raymond Belle, the man who inspired the philosphy of parkour. The very way in which he lived is the basis for why we train. Belle was an incredible athlete. But that wasn't what inspired the creation of parkour. The inspiration came from what he did with those skills. He didn't use them to feel free, or to express himself, or anything of the sort. He saved lives.

In France, firefighters were (and possibly still are), not a group of paid civilians, but a branch of the military. Raymonde Belle, the incredible athlete, was one such firefighter. In fact, he was a decorated hero, a member of an elite squad. When he trained, it wasn't to feel free. It was so that he could save people.

Now, let me remind some people (and inform some) about the very origins of the word "parkour". It began with the word "parcours". "Parcours" was a term for a type of training used by the French military during the vietnam war. More specifically, it meant obstacle course training. Soldiers trained to be able to pass any obstacle. Sound familiar? Now, why did they do this? To feel free and to express themselves? No. The purpose of training these skills was so that they could use them when they had to.

Parkour is all about the philosophy. If you practice the movements, but not the philosophy, you aren't practicing parkour."

Parkour for me is another way to stay healthy and off drugs.
I mean why stop teens from doing parkour? It's better than drugs.
Why I referred, it's because, all around the world teens like me do parkour, and in some cases they were told off by either the police, landowners or University guards.
Parkour is not yet recognized as "useful" around the world.
But I know people who explain parkour to policemen and landowners or guards, and they managed to get their approval and have pk sessions.

Right now, I am limited.
I cannot go out often.
So I cannot pk as often as other people.
But would this be a given circumstance from the Lord?
Telling me to condition my body before doing parkour?

I was inspired by another traceurist who is the same age as me to condition my body as he is. His project was to condition his body over a period of 600 days.
Since he tried parkour before, but felt back, knee and wrist pains. But as he conditioned his body, the pain lessened until it finally disappeared. He's still undergoing the 600 days, and I am now joining him, as he lists the exercises that he does.
So I've been conditioning for about 3 days now. 597 more to go.
I believe God can use my parkour skills to glorify His name. And I'm trying to find out if He can.
I'm really struggling in knowing what my talent is.
I'm struggling to see how God can use me.
I thought I had found it. But it was not.
Creativity?
I enjoy composing music. But sometimes, I feel down and can't think of anything.
It's like, "Maybe, this is not my talent."

The mission?

To find a way to glorify God's name and fulfill my purpose here on earth.

But before I start. There's parts of me that is still sinful. I admit. I fall occasionally.
So if I gave everything to the Lord. The Lord would change me.
I can see that. But there's an obstacle. Like how I wrote Chaos and The Wall.
If I tried to be happy, or be like one of those people who are optimistic all the time.
Like saying "Good Morning!" or "HI!" to people and stuff. I feel ashamed.
I think, "I wonder what my parents think? I wonder if they'd laugh at me."
Whenever I think about those things, I have a feeling of......

Hold on. I shouldn't compare myself to others should I?
I should just trust God and pray everyday. And let His Holy Spirit lead me and show me what I need to do. I was not created to be like other people right?
So this means God has something for me. A specialized mission just for me.
It's all very clear now.
By writing, I have found/reminded myself what I need to do, my purpose here.
I've read things from my paces, which actually helped.
As I end this post.
All I can say is.
"I've never regretted anything that has happened to my life when I saw it in God's perspective."