==:: Alpha Revolution ::==

May, 7, 2007.
Today marks the beginning of the JDS Revolution!
Why? Because the main purpose of the revolution is to change Justin.
Yes, I'm sick and tired of being lonely.
Sick and Tired of being controlled by Chaos. Watching the world pass by.
Well anyways, God told me this last night, actually last last night.
"You are unsure because you like yourself too much."
Unsure? Uncertainty, Chaos, it's all the same.
Yes, true, I like myself too much, afraid to admit it.
I like myself too much that I am afraid of what I'll look like in public, of how I speak, of what I should say. I guess that's only half of why I'm unsure, the other half is the fear of being rejected. These are all closely related, which, through my everlasting pondering, have found the weak spot of The Wall.
Yes, all walls have a weak spot.
This weak spot has triggered the Revolution.
This weak spot, is what God had told me.
I am unsure, I am doubtful, I am double minded, I am in Chaos because I like myself and at the same time the feeling of rejection. This is all utter Chaos.
I just need God's strength to break that wall. Just like how David killed Goliath.
In conclusion to this, "Why can't I just forget about myself?!"
That is what the bible says. Forget about myself and concentrate on Jesus, my service to Him.
This is one of the basic parts of servant hood.


"For we preach not ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord; and ourselves your servants for Jesus' sake."
-2 Corinthians 4:5